Half a Year

The end of the year is quickly approaching and I’m realizing I only posted here twice. Once to catch up on 2015 and then when Prince died. That’s not super great. It’s like I’m not even a blogger! I guess maybe I’m really not?

But I want to be! I used to be! So, one of my goals in 2017 will be to use this space again. It’ll be a wee bit different than when I was using it to solely track my training and hiking leading up to the Grand Canyon hike but not by much. I want this space to keep me accountable to my goals and my aspirations and my emotions and feelings on track. A public journal so I actually feel accountable to something other than myself. Which is sad. But it’s reality so that’s that.

This post will be a quickie roundup of the first half of this year. It would likely be far too long to do it all at once. What with me being wordy at times and using photos so you can ooooh and aaaah at stuff.

Part two will be posted next week. Because there’s still a bit over a week left of the year and who knows what will happen!

January

The year started with my boyfriend taking me to the Cactus Bowl to watch WVU play ASU! Our seats were right beside the WVU Marching Band, which is awesome, and the Mountaineers won! It was so great to be walking around outside the stadium seeing so many of the WV logos and the blue and gold. It was great. I loved it.

I only worked out twice, due to having to go to Pennsylvania for a week for work and various family events. I did, however, hike three times in preparation for the National Trail Trek! Which was also in January. My friend, Jeff, came out and participated in it with me and then got stuck here due to snow on the East Coast. The day after the NTT we all hiked with our dogs to make sure we got a nice, easy hike in to reduce stiffness. Plus who doesn’t want to hike with a herd of puppies? Nobody I want to know!

Happy Hiker!

I continued to see the chiro all month to make sure my hips stayed in alignment and I ended the month with a massage and pedi. That one was well earned after the travel and hiking!

I was able to go to two Suns games, both for free! One of which was floor seats! Yay sportsball!

February

This was a bad month for activity for some reason. Timing and events, I suppose. I only worked out with Tyler twice and didn’t go to the chiro at all.

My Dad came to town for the Waste Management Phoenix Open and I did a lot of walking around that weekend, thank goodness.

My hiking friends and I had a clothing swap and me and the boyfriend went to a roller derby.

The month ended with the one and only hike! It was in a lovely location where we saw a herd of wild horses and a bald eagle soared overhead. It was quite majestic and my first sighting of one in the wild!

Butcher Jones Hike

March

I had allergy testing done and found out I’m allergic to a whole slew of things and should just never go outside ever. Oh, well.

I went to the gym and worked with Tyler NINE TIMES!! Go March!! *flex*

I went to the chiro once. I think that was my last visit.

We (when I say we, I mean me and my boyfriend. I’m a we now. It’s nice.) went to a Cubs spring training game. I decided then that I would be a Cubs fan for I like the little cubbie logo guy. And this turned out to be one of the best decisions I made this year.

I had my yearly mammogram and this one was the worst one yet. The lady manhandled me worse than I’ve ever experienced, it hurt like hell, and when it was all over I felt incredibly violated and I cried. A lot. I understand that this is part of taking care of my body and my health and my life but there has to be a better way. I shouldn’t feel such intense violation in order to stay healthy.

I had four hikes in March and they were all awesome. The first one was a fun little puppy hike. The second one was a beautiful hike in Sedona. The third one was an even more beautiful but terrifying hike in Sedona that was just my boyfriend and I. He got me through the very scary spots and I even went out on the very high and not as narrow as it seems bridge! The last hike for the month was the Move Across 2 Ranges. And instead of doing 21 miles I did 3. Because I was not in the mood. Instead I sat in the sun with a hiking friend who also determined she was not in the mood and talked and read a book and had snacks and it was relaxing and exactly what was needed.

Devil's Bridge

April

I gymmed four times. One of which was solo since Tyler took a vacation.

I hiked twice. One of which was in a totally new to me place and it was really nice.

There were lots of fun events in April. I went to a fun work party with the boyfriend. A Seder celebration with one of my friends at her home with family and friends. One of my dearest friends got married in Vegas and that was a fun weekend. The owner of my company took us to a lovely evening that included a limo bus ride to the venue, an amazing dinner, and a suite where we watched a Carrie Underwood concert. I’m not big on country but that was a really fun evening.

I already discussed Prince dying. I don’t want to again. It still sucks and I still hate it and I still find it terribly unfair and unnecessary and unreal.

I ended the month with a massage. I’m worth it.

Carrie Underwood

May

I only hiked twice but I managed to hit the gym and work with my trainer four times. Which is amazing considering I went to England for a week!!

That’s right. I finally made it to London. It was amazing. We did so many things and had such delicious foods and I finally saw Stonehenge and I had to drive and that was weird and just all of the things! Then an epic layover in Ireland that resulted in us really only sitting and enjoying the fact that we were in Ireland for, oh….half an hour! We didn’t realize the Dublin airport was a pre-TSA check airport and that we had to go through all of that. But it made the layover in Philly so much easier and relaxing. 

Dan Saturday

Stonehenge!

June

The month started with my friends coming to town for the Comicon. We did a low key version of the ‘Con this year and, instead, did lots of pool party shenanigans at my house. Fun was had by all.

I went to the gym and worked with Tyler four times.

I had a massage. Because I’m a mess of knots.

The only hiking I did was in Yellowstone! Yes, I went to the Grand Teton and Yellowstone National Parks with my family. I saw a grizzly bear with a cub. I saw a black bear with two cubs. I saw buffalo and elk! It was more beautiful than you can imagine. While there we hiked the Brink of Lower Falls trail and Uncle Tom’s Trail. The elevation of the park was enough to make it hard for me to breathe. Neither trail, really, is difficult. But yes it is if you cannot breathe. My first night in Jackson Hole I threw up multiple times due to elevation sickness. I get all of the dumb afflictions, you guys. But anyway, Brink of Lower Falls trail is a sort of steep graded set of switchbacks. Down was no sweat. Walking up required many breaks. Uncle Tom’s Trail, however, was mostly a series of staircases. With over 300 steps. That are mounted on the side of the mountain. And are see through. My fear of heights was deeply engaged. But I did it! Hell yeah, I did.

Grand Teton National Park

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Grand Canyon of Yellowstone

And that is the first half of 2016 brief update. See you next week!

You’ve Been Gone

This isn’t about hiking, weight loss or gain, or my gym time. This is about Prince.

I don’t even know what to say. I’m just hoping to say enough words so it becomes real in my mind that he’s actually gone. That there’s no more opportunities for me to plan my plan of action if he comes around my area. No more waiting for just the right time for me to take that spontaneous trip to Minneapolis to go to a house party at Paisley Park. No new music. No seeing him doing his Prince thing. No more. Ever again. Gone.

I’ve been a Prince fan for as long as I remember. My earliest memories of music entail my Mom’s music (Manilow, Captain & Tennille, Rod Stewart), my Dad’s music (The Stones, CCR, “Cover of the Rolling Stone,” Dylan), and me in the dining room with those huge headphones on, curled cord tethering me the wall sized stereo setup my Dad bought while in the military, listening to the “Purple Rain” soundtrack over and over and over. Rollerskating in the street to a neighbor’s “1999” cassette.” “17 Days” on 45 at my friend Becky’s house. “I Want to Be Your Lover” at Natalie’s.

Mom took me to see “Purple Rain” in the theatre. I was 12. And it left lasting impressions on me. It shaped in my young mind was sexy. I see the influence in my life strongly.

I was always a Prince fan. Everyone knew. My ex-husband knew that if Prince ever knocked on the door, I was out of there. He said that would be fine.

The day he died, I went into denial. And then I went into a sobbing mess in my office chair with my door closed to try to be somewhat professional. I couldn’t talk about it. I refused to talk about him in the past tense. Because I was never going to live in a world without Prince. It just wasn’t going to happen.

Yet, here we are. Doing just that. I have all of the tribute magazines to prove it.

Prince

I don’t usually get that worked up about celebrity deaths. But this didn’t feel like a celebrity death to me. It felt as if something important was ripped out of my life before I’d had opportunity to prepare. It felt like a grim reminder of all of the things that I plan to do someday that I may not actually ever get to do. I didn’t want that type of reminder. I wasn’t ready for that type of reminder. I’m still young. I’m supposed to still be able to have “Go to a house party at Paisley Park” on my to do list and I’m supposed to know that is really going to happen someday.

When I see reminders that he’s dead, cremated, and gone I just hurt. So, I’m hoping that by pulling these feelings and thoughts out of my head and leaving them here will help move that along. Because I need it to move along.

He died too soon.

This feels dumb. So I’ll end it now.

Finish Line

Apparently when I’m doing other things out here in my real life, I can’t keep up with being up to date here. It’s fine.

Thursday gym looked like this:

FM hack squat 60×15 80×15 80×15
KB front squat with reverse lunge 18×10 18×10 18×10
FM cable curl & press 20×10 20×10 20×10
Planks 30s 45s 60s
Supermans 20 20 20
Leg lift crunch 10 / 10 10 / 10 10 / 10

I was late getting to the gym due to work so only got in 45 minutes. But he is really pushing me now. No more long breaks in between. Work and talk. Talk and work. Progress, Andrea! We’re making it.

Super hot trainer was there again. So I put on my smiley face. Every time he even looked like he was looking my way? I was smiling. Big, nice, happy girl smile. That’s how I flirt.

I did not hike this weekend due to the Relay for Life. But then the relay wound up getting rained and winded out. I walked for about an hour before this super wind hit and blew down all of the tables, tents, foods, and brought heavy cold wind. This does happen in the desert. Now you know!

Before decided whether or not we were going to call the relay a wash or not we wound up at Applebee’s as it was the only place open that late. I told the waitress I was sorry for “being that person” but she was so awesome in helping me put together something I could eat that would be compliant. She even sat down at the table and went over some options with me and we settled on a nice 4oz steak and sweet potato fries. She was awesome, nice, helpful, and patient and I wish I’d gotten her name so I could send in a note. That’s how much I appreciated her.

I spent my weekend cleaning my house and cooking. I bought a Dutch oven and new pots and pans. Then I cleaned my house and now my dogs are trying to put their touch on it buy spreading the inside of their stuffed toys hither and yon. Oh, dogs.

I always put off the cleaning. Especially of my room. I’ll clean the whole house and leave my room for last and then decide, eh…who’s seeing it anyway?

The answer is me. I’m seeing it. And I finally really saw it.

A nice glimpse into the teenager that, apparently, still lives in my soul.

A nice glimpse into the teenager that, apparently, still lives in my soul.

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But then I cleaned it and now I have the soul of an adult.

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In my cleaning I got rid of 26 items bringing my total to 249 items tossed out of my house. This consisted of old towels that barely covered my body thanks to being holey that I got for wedding gifts in 1995 and was still using, old undies that were not suitable for viewing, and then ten random assed things I had laying about my room that serve no purpose other than to take up space. No more randoms! You are out of here.

I also got rid of all of the cat stuff that I thought I’d already gotten rid of and hung more stuff on the walls in the computer room. So, I was busy and productive.

More cooking occurred to stay on the Whole30 and I am now on Day 29!!! Tomorrow is Day 30!! I’m gonna put creamer in coffee on Wednesday and see what happens! I’m planning to go out for a nice, local burrito that doesn’t have cheese on Friday! WOO!!

The last few days, though, I’ve felt nauseated off and on. Which sucks because I have no idea what is causing it. I am eating super healthy, I am sleeping so great, I have energy, etc. And then now? Random nausea. That sucks. Like, even right now I feel as if I could hurl. Not the best feeling, that.

I won’t weight myself again until Wednesday. Weigh and measure for the final results. I AM SO EXCITED!

There’s, also, people at work that have noted the improvements. One is now doing the Whole30 and asking me lots of questions, which is great, and another has made lots of healthy improvements in her diet. I think that is fantastic.

And now I’m gonna go lay down and try not to puke. You’re welcome!

Hey, Stranger!

Over a week has gone by. I’m not even sorry.

Last Tuesday I did this at the gym:

walking lunges 15yds 15yds 15yds Set 2&3 – pulse on squats
Jump squats 10 10 10
Reverse lunges 15yds 15yds 15yds Set 2&3 – pulse on squats
Wall sit 30s 30s 30s
Back extensions 15 15 15
2 way shoulders 5×10/10 5×10/10 5×10/10
Vertical chest press 60×10 60×10 60×10
Dip machine 80×10 80×10 80×10
Lat pull down cybex 40×10 40×10 40×10
Plate bicep curls 25×10 25×10 25×10

I am a PRO at wall sits now. 30 seconds goes by like nothing. I can sit there and talk like it’s the easiest thing in the world. This makes me happy.

The plate bicep curls were the hardest thing I did last Tuesday. Of all of the things that was the hardest. I have no idea why, unless I was just tired by then.

While working out, I asked Tyler if he felt i was ready to hike the canyon. He said yes. Then he also said that anybody could hike it. But I’m at an advantage because I won’t get hurt, etc. I just don’t even know what to do with that. I really don’t. Let’s move on.

Thursday the Star Wars trailer came out. I am a Star Wars fan and I’ve been keeping my expectations for the new movie at the meh level because those prequels were crap. Just pure crap, man. But then that trailer came out. And John Williams music swelled in the background. And there was that amazing panning shot of a downed Star Destoyer. And there was Luke narrarating the thing in a vague manner with dialogue from Return of the Jedi. And there was excitement. And then there was Han and Chewie and I got chills and I smiled and I teared up and just like that my expectation level went through the damn roof.

I looked around to see who I could share my excitement with and there was nobody. Not a soul. And it set off a course of sadness.

I didn’t gym on Thursday because I had a ticket to go to a live Welcome to Night Vale show. And oh my goodness how much fun was that?!?!? But…there was nobody to smile with. To enjoy it with me.

I live a very solitary life. It’s fine. I have friends and family but they’re all over the place and/or their interests are very far removed from my own. So it leads to me being alone a lot. And it just sometimes gets to me. This is one of those times. I wish I had a friend or someone like that nearby to share my joyful experiences with. I had that before and I miss is terribly.

Anyway. I moped about it and even put some sad on my FB and nobody really responded appropriately enough for my fucked up asshole brain and then that made it worse. I cried all of Friday evening. Alone with my dogs.

Saturday I got up and went for a hike with my hiking group. It was a very nice hike. Two really good areas of incline and it got my heart pumping good. It was a new area to me. It was pretty but nothing special. I’d go on that one again. A nice, easy 5ish miles.

I love this shot.

I love this shot.

This is me! I did not take this.

This is me! I did not take this.

Then I went home and napped then got ready to go see Purple Rain in a movie theatre with two of my hiking friends! There’s a local dude that organizes these monthly events where he shows classic movies in local theatres. This was the first one I went to and it was a lot of fun!

I love Prince. I love Purple Rain. But I totally recognize that it is not a good movie. But it’s one of my favorites anyway because of Prince. When I watch it at home, I watch it with the seriousness that tiny man is demanding from the audience with all of his over the top acting and temper tantrums. But in the theatre surrounded by people? There was so much laughter! Prince gets angry about Morris being a fool? Angry stomp and dramatic arm swings! Prince isn’t happy about his Dad slapping his Mom? Dramatic staring into the camera. Prince and Apollonia get it on? Cue all of the laughter!! I proclaimed “These people are making a mockery of his drama!” but I was one of those people, too. And it was fun. I had fun.

Sunday morning I dragged my tired behind out of bed and took the dogs on our Sunday hike. Riley is just not a hiker and he’s pissing me off. Which, really, is likely more to do with my being sleepy and sad. I cried. I found a pocket of space in the group where I was surrounded but alone and I cried. And people saw me jerking Riley by his leash and I generally feel like a jerk about all of that. I need to work with him. He’s not been with me very long. He’s got years of training from another household that I have to overcome and that’s not going to happen in four weeks.

Due to me being so sad my desire for a brownie was at high levels. I wanted it bad. I fixated on how sad I was and how a brownie would just make me feel happy. I can’t get a hug? I can’t share my Star Wars joy with someone in person that gets it? I can’t have someone just be there to pat me on my sad little head? BROWNIES WILL FIX ALL OF THAT!!!

I did not bake brownies. I, instead, went to the stores, cooked food, took a nap, and kept myself busy to try to distract from the fact that I’m a lonely little jerk.

I’m currently on day 24 of the Whole30 and I’ve been compliant every day, other than the getting on the scale. I’ve eaten clean and healthy every day and I enjoy it. I only want a brownie because of the sad. And it only sucks that I can’t eat one because of the sad. The sad makes everything stupid. Especially me.

But I have gymming from yesterday to talk about so let’s get to that, shall we? Yes, we shall.

bosu ball crunch 20 20 20
Bosu ball alt knee to elbow 20 20 20
Bosu ball alt hand to foot 20 20 20
KB single arm front squat 18×10 18×10 26×10
Stepper quick feet 10 10 10
Stepper dynamic step ups 10 10 10
Med ball squat toss 6×15 6×15 6×15
Med ball oblique twist 6×30 6×30 6×30
Med ball walking lung with twist l 6×10 6×10 6×10
Med ball toss 6×10 6×10 6×10

I felt good and strong yesterday. Nothing hurt. Nothing was super hard for me to do. Challenging and new, sure, but not hard. Other than the dizziness that would still arrive. Bah! But other than that? I did all of this without complaint and I am so happy about that.

And now we’ve caught up again.

Cheater

I just went to grab the stats for Thursday and they are not there. The wifi in the gym is messing with my stats, man! So, let’s see if I can put this together through the power of my mind. HAHAHA.

I did get back on the stairmill. The one that went crazy on me had an out of order sign on it. So I got on another one. And I reminded myself that if anything went awry to just stop walking. And it still made me nervous which is the only reason I can come up with for a normal five minutes on the stairmill to make my heart race, my breathing labored, and my legs feel like they are on fire. That all sounds like stress.

I still feel like my body is not as strong as it was. The theory is that it is because my body is learning to pull power and energy from fat instead of sugar and that is an adjustment and to be patient. So, I’ll try. I will try with patience.

So I did some upperbody stuff. I have no idea how much the weight was. But I did that and I laid down on the bench for the bench press and I did leg lifts. I can lift my legs but they are not straight because I do not stretch.

Then we walked over to the other side of the gym for ab work and on the way I made eye contact with a very, very hot trainer that reminds me of someone I enjoyed spending time with and I got all giggley and giddy and weird. When Tyler came back over with the equipment he was all “What happened? Did you trip over your mat?” Because that is a thing I have done and could have done again. I refused to tell him why I was so giggley. But that dude is distractingly hot. Distractingly so.

I did burpees with a wall slam and then more ab work and things weren’t as horrible as they could have been. That was the gym on Thursday.

When I returned home from the gym my RxBars had arrived and I ate one for dinner with a salad. And it was damn tasty. I hope they are all that tasty.

On Friday I made my first trip to Whole Foods and I hope to limit that activity. That stuff is expensive. I shall only go there if I absolutely need something that I cannot find at Sprouts. But I did get delicious Whole30 compliant bacon, herb sausage, and chorizo sausage. I made the bacon Friday night and it was really good. But what I learned from this experience is that I really do not care that much about bacon. Yeah, it’s very good. But I rarely make it at home and that’s usually just because I wanted biscuits and gravy and I MUCH prefer bacon gravy to sausage gravy. When I got out for breakfast and I get the standard eggs and meat and toast? I usually go with sausage. I mostly use bacon on things. So, that’s a thing I now realize.

I went on a good hike on Saturday after three weeks! It wasn’t a hard hike but I totally kept up with the leader and this hike has a lot of UP to it. So that was good. And it was magical with the light and the hot air balloons all around us.

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I did not take this one. But I am in this one. And it's just beautiful.

I did not take this one. But I am in this one. And it’s just beautiful.

Then I came home and cooked some yum Whole 30 compliant foods, took a short nap, talked to my friend Jeff about our upcoming canyon hike!, and then got ready for a night of rollerskating!

40 somethings totally love to rollerskate!

40 somethings totally love to rollerskate!

I did so much better than the last time I went, which was a few years ago. My working with a trainer and my hiking has improved my strength and balance so that was fun to see. I wasn’t awesome by any means but I definitely felt more confident on the skates once I got on the floor.

Then I went to IHOP and watched people eat cupcakes, ice cream, waffles, and all sorts of good stuff that I cannot have. It was a wee bit sad. Because I’ve got the PMS and I want a fucking cupcake.

I got to bed around midnight and still woke up at 4:15 for the Sunday hike for my wee dogs.

They deserve this weekly outing whether I'm sleepy or not.

They deserve this weekly outing whether I’m sleepy or not.

So all in all this weekend I hiked around 8 miles and roller-skated and stayed Whole 30 compliant!

Except…I got on the scale. Which is not allowed.

I was very, very grumpy because of the lack of sleep and I saw a photo from the rollerskate party that I did not like of myself and it all made me grumpy and then I remembered that I didn’t eat a cupcake so I was very much going to weigh myself just to see that everything I’m doing isn’t changing anything and then I’ll bake some brownies and that will show them all!!

Except…I’ve lost damn near 7 pounds. In 14 Days. Today is Day 14 and I’ve lost damn near 7 pounds just by eating real, whole food. I’m not counting calories. I’m not tracking what I eat. I just eat what meets the criteria when I get hungry and stop eating when I’m full. And I’ve lost damn near 7 pounds.

So, no. I did not bake any brownies and I put the scale back in the closet.

I went to the grocery store, instead, and bought a lot more veggies. I’ve not been incorporating veggies into my meals enough so I’m changing that now.

Apparently another thing I’ve learned is that I am very much an emotional eater of the brownies and that PMS will wake up that urge like a mofo. Beware the PMS mofo!

Today I made that amazing scallops and chorizo recipe I saw on their Instagram and it was SO GOOD! That chorizo sausage is dangerously tasty.

Now I must clean up my kitchen from all of this cooking.

So Many Things!

So, I hiked last weekend. Let’s talk about that, shall we.

On Saturday I hiked with the group that I like…until I hike with them. They just don’t go well with me. The hike itself was amazing and beautiful and I’m glad I went.

Superstition Mountains in the spring is one of the loveliest places ever.

Superstition Mountains in the spring is one of the loveliest places ever.

We hiked up to Praying Hands and they said there wasn’t much elevation gain, etc. on this hike but that was just not really true. The entire trail was a good, steady uphill and I did well on that part. And that made me feel amazing because the last time I hiked on a similar trail out there I had to rest a lot. But then we got to super steep, narrow trail and I didn’t like it but I was managing OK. But we just kept climbing and my head wasn’t right and I got lost in it and then I finally got a spot I hated and I stopped to think about it and the lady that is super nice but I can’t deal with her management style on the trail says “KEEP MOVING, ANDREA! THERE’S PEOPLE BEHIND YOU!” Well, no shit. I know that. I know I am not a special snowflake and I know I am not the only fucking person on the trail but goddamn. I like my usual groups method better. “What do you need, Andrea?” or they just get behind me and gently nudge me up the hill. They get me. This lady just mutters to her friend about how I need to stop listening to the negative voice of anxiety in my head. Again, no shit. But easier said than done sometimes. Especially once someone yells at me when I’m in that state. So, I found a rock and I sat on it and refused to go further.

On the way down my friends that were on the hike helped me as well as a member of the group we were with. He was very understanding of where I was and he was just really nice. But the whole thing got into my head and I’m realizing now that it actually impacted my entire week.

On Sunday I took Gladys on our nice, easy hike with our usual group of friends and there was another dog on the hike that just so happened to need a home. He and Gladys looked super cute together and it got my little wheels in my brain moving.

Buddies.

Buddies.

On Monday I made contact with his owner and made arrangements for a “trial run” to see how Gladys would feel about having a dog in her house. By Tuesday I was already renaming him and buying him a new collar, leash, and harness. So, I have an additional dog in my home. We’re a family of three now.

Couch time.

Couch time with Gladys and Riley.

But I also worked out with Tyler on Tuesday, as per usual!

Foam roller
DB SB chest press 20×10 20×10 15×10
SB crunch 15 15 10
SB arm extened plank hold knee tucks 5 5 5
rope work 20:10 3min 6 exercises x
DB single arm opposite leg shoulder press 10×10 10×10 10×10
Ski jumpers 10 10 10
Standing bird dogs 10 10 10

My hip had been bothering me for some days and I’d not stretched or rolled so he made me roll before we got started. It made a difference. I should get on that more regularly like a reasonable person. How many times have I said this now?

I’m not sure why I only did 10 crunches on the swissball on my last set. No idea at all.

He made me do planks on the swissball and then do knee tucks. He lightly held the ball but that made me feel like I wasn’t doing anything and he couldn’t make me believe he wasn’t totally holding it still so he then put it up against the TRX frame and said “Do it! See the difference?” and then I knew that he was basically just a set of training wheels and I then I did them and felt ok with my performance. It’s this type of thing that slowly made me realize that my behavior on Saturday got into my head and shook my confidence a bit and woke up my anxiety a bit more than that.

In fact, I should take a Xanax now and just kinda level off! Hang on… Back! Sometimes you just kinda need a help in leveling off, man.

On the DB single arm opposite leg shoulder press, my balance was good then it wasn’t then I was kicking out my bent leg to counter balance which Tyler said was ok, it was better than putting it on the ground, etc. Lots of balance work. The ski jumpers were for balance, too. And the standing bird dogs, I think were where I had to stand on one leg with both hands up in the air then you bring the bent leg up and crunch one arm down to meet the knee while keeping the other arm up in the air. I did not do these well. He wants me to practice this at home. To that I can only say this:

Wednesday I did home stuff with the dogs and the pool.

Thursday I did gym stuff. And I was not in a happy place in my head and my performance at the gym was bullshit.

TRX weight stick push up hold 10 10 10
TRX weight stick row 10 10 10
TRX weight stick ab extension 10 10 10
TRX weight stick crunch 10 10 10
Med ball purple push up high toss 20xLOT 20xLOT
Assisted pull ups 160×15 150×15 150×15

The TRX weight stick push up hold was TERRIBLE and I HATED IT and it was all because of anxiety and crap.

When he explained to me what the TRX weight stick ab extension was I was all “Awww, hell naw, I ain’t doing that.” But I totally did it and it was my favorite thing of the session.

The medicine ball purple push up high toss things? I had to do a burpee holding onto the ball, then a push up (which I think is actually part of a real burpee) and then pick up the ball and toss it high but far. But not like a basketball. I, apparently, have the March Madness! But I did these. In a terrible fashion.

We finished things off with assisted pull ups. They were ok.

Friday I went to a baseball game and ate a bacon wrapped hot dog and had a beer. Then I came home and did home stuff with the dogs and the pool and decided that I just should not go on the big hike today, Saturday. My friends were doing a special return trip to Oro Valley to do that second hike that scared the crap out of me. I was really very much looking forward to it but in all honestly, I just added a dog to my life. I’m away from the house 10 – 12 hours each day and he’s been couped up with Gladys, a new to him dog, during that time. The evenings have been spent with them playing frenetically then going to bed then more of that in the mornings before I leave for work. And Gladys’ whole routine has been disrupted as well. I didn’t think it was right to then also take the first day off to leave the house super early and then be gone all day again. I am going to take them hiking tomorrow morning, yes, and I’ll be home most of the day but I have plans tomorrow evening that are set. So, I let my responsible dog owner take over and I cancelled today’s hike. And it’s been really good. They’ve taken naps. They’ve shared couch space. They’ve been outside. They’re not playing like wild monkeys so much. A whole lot of settling in has started and it’s fantastic. That means that I’ll be able to start retraining Riley in some areas he needs improvement in.

Sharing space, sharing me.

Sharing space, sharing me.

I did, however, make a small grocery store list from the Whole 30 program and hit the store. Instead of buying pre-made breakfast sausage I bought ground pork and then researched what spices to mix into it to create my own breakfast sausage.

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wpid-20150328_165844.jpgIt is now in the fridge to let all of the flavors join together and when I get home from the hike I’ll brown it up, scramble some eggs, and I’ll have my first Whole 30 approved meal. It’s just too bad I also bought milk and ice cream at the store. Ooops.

I also went to REI and spent my dividend check plus some of my own cash. Because my dividend was not that huge. But it was huge enough to totally pay for a new hydration pack that I can wear on my super easy hikes. My day pack is now too big for that. That’s for my long day hikes. This pack will be for my Sunday hikes. And I bought three pairs of hiking socks and now I am all set for socks for the canyon! Also, thanks to my dividend check I know that I spent $1,050 on hiking gear last year! But only $600 of that was eligible for dividending. I bought some stuff on sales that were far too good to pass up.

Well, the Xanax has kicked in, which is good timing. OH, but I should also add that I got rid of three more things in the 1,000 Things Challenge before I close.

Good bye stuff!

Good bye stuff!

The mouse and monitor are being donated to a group home for kids so they can do homework and the earbuds that Gladys chewed up as a puppy were tossed in the trash, as they should have been last year when it first happened.

What I have now realized in my own head on my own, which is great, is that I need to try to not let people like that one hike lady get to me. I need to change how I respond to that so I don’t regret my behavior later. That’s going to be a challenge. And I need to rely on myself again. I’ve got a friend on the hikes that I have realized is my security blanket. She’s not always going to be there. And it’s not fair to her, really, to have to slow down or whatever when I call to her to get me through something. I need to rely on myself. I can do that. These are things for me to work on.

And now I will run. I’m feeling too groovy to type!

 

Weekend Recap Photo Post!

On Saturday I went to the Boyce Thompson Arboretum with a co-worker friend of mine and it was lovely! Flowers, trees, hummingbirds, butterflies, fresh air, a nice stroll, and a Gila Monster!

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We had delicious Mexican lunch and then we went home. It was a wonderful day!

Sunday, I took Gladys on the easy Sunday hike. We got to see a momma owl in her nest! We were all very excited about that.

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desert tortoise-5Then I came home and I took away the pump to the pool and cleaned the filters. By myself. For the first time. This did, however, entail me texting the owner of the pool and a old friend of mine and they reassured me I was not about to break things. So I forged ahead and got it all done. One thing I noticed was that I was able to lift the filter cartridges out of the pump much easier this time around. Because I have muscles now!

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Then I came inside and got rid of 14 more items, bringing my total of items purged to 171!!

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These have sat, unused, beside my sink for years.

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At one point these were beautiful solar system suckers. But the planets, and Sun, disappeared over time and that made me sad. I thought they’d last forever!

I finished Sunday by going out to dinner with my friend Wendy, who I just do not get to spend time with enough. So that was a lovely way to finish up an awesome weekend!