Thanks to various members of my family, I have a hiatal hernia which allows stomach acid to come up into my esophagus and cause heartburn regardless of what I eat. It also created a ring of scar tissue that resulted in food getting stuck and me needing an emergency endoscopy about seven years ago. I now take Prilosec once a day to keep all of that at bay and continue eating whatever the eff I want without heartburn. It’s nice.

But I mathed wrong and ran out of my Rx but just a few days short and thought I’d wing it and not spend money on an OTC version. Until I acted like an idiot and ate a chorizo and egg burrito and damn near died due to how much burn I had and upset, gurgly belly and all of it. Which took me to the local drugstore for OTC Prilosec which was unnecessary since my Rx was in the mailbox waiting on me. I will never, ever, ever do that again. I was miserable and it was terrible and I, clearly, am unable to make wise choices when I know I should.

Also last week was terrible as far as my walking goes:

terrible fitbit week

But today starts a new week and I’m back on track! I just did my office hallway walk and that was over a mile and a half! In a hallway! So, once I do my just over 2 miles at home this evening I’m sure I’ll be over 10k for the day and bam!

I’m in 3rd place in the office weigh loss challenge and, according to the work scale and challenge stats, I’m down 6.4 pounds. According to my scale and my personal stats I’m down 7.8. But my stats started before the office ones did so they’re likely the same, really. Either way! I’m shrinking and feeling good about it.

Adulthood Strikes Back

My boyfriend’s work schedule was different over the weekend which, for reasons that shouldn’t be reasons, threw me off with meal planning. Which is all my own fault and I own that. But it’s there. Which means this week hasn’t been great with my fooding. And today found me at the McDonald’s drive thru and now I feel like ass.

I also haven’t been able to fit in all of my walking so I’m not maintaining my lead or my streak of 10k steps every day, either.

Despite all of this I am just over one pound down from last Friday and I am hopeful for that to be the case tomorrow for the official weigh-in. So I’m 3 pounds from my mini-goal and 17 from my main goal. WOO!

In my realization that I’d like to buy a house but likely can’t but will definitely need to be able to, at least, pay rent starting in a little over a year I’ve been assessing my expenses. And I’ve adjusted where I can and then realized that my personal trainer was my largest non-essential expense and therefore on Tuesday I told him the news and he said “you’re breaking up with me?!” and gave me a hug and then said really nice things about working with me and getting to know me and it was all very nice. He sounds like he’s going to work on putting together some workouts for me to rotate through that I can work on myself there at the gym so we’ll see if I can keep myself motivated to do that!

But what that means is that I’ll be paying off the little bit of debt that I have and all that I’ll have left is my car payment and therefore should have a nice sum in my account for moving expenses and deposits when it’s time.

Now that I have a plan, universe, please don’t give me a wrench. Kthxbye.

So Much Winning

I am number one on my Fitbit friends list!! So many days in a row of over 10k steps, y’all. SO MANY! I didn’t think I’d get them in last night and then I did. Like magic. Or, like walking circles in my house.

Today is my official weigh-in day. And guess what? All of this buckling down has really started to pay off. I am now only 4 pounds from my mini goal and 18 from my main goal!! Can you even on my behalf because I am unable to! It’s about time. But, you know, it was also about time that I got serious about this shit, too, so there’s that.

My mood remains good, even though my cramps were still sort of in charge at the gym and my trainer made me do this one exercise that he didn’t think would impact me but it did and he got, for the first time ever, one of my trademarked “I will kill you!” death stares straight into his eyes. He was impressed. But the mood is good. Despite that and despite that I am dealing with the fact that I will likely never ever own my own home but that’s a whole other thing for a whole other time.

Today I am winning. Where’s my cookie?


I was so caught up in my Fitbit tomfuckery that I forgot to update about the walking the hiking, and the weight loss!

Except I did update about the walking since that was part of the tomfuckery so never mind.

Sunday, however, I went on a morning hike and I took both of my dogs and the doggie house guest that I had. One friend walked the house guest. Another friend walked Riley. And I walked my Gladys. Because sometimes I play favorites and that sometime will always be on a hike. Because Gladys is a hiker and Riley is not. But he did really well for our friend, Cindy, and for that we are all glad.


Have you ever seen a happier dog? I think not. This girl LOVES to hike and it makes me so very happy. She doesn’t sniff and pee on all of the things. She is far too busy hiking for any of that nonsense. I love her and she loves to hike and she is likely my actual spirit animal.

So, my period showed up two days early today and that means cramps and me likely canceling on my trainer for this evening because I get to, dammit. But it also means I am now even more impressed with my current decline in weight seeing as how I usually bloat like a whale during PMS and then the actual period days. However I am down in weight and I am now only 5 pounds from my mini goal and 19 pounds from my main goal! WOO!

I am, however, only in 4th place in the office challenge since other people decided to get serious at the same time I got serious. And we’re going on percent lost instead of weight lost and one girl is already very small so any weight she loses will be a higher percentage and she’s throwing off the curve, man! But that’s fine. Because being in this challenge jump started my motivation and that is well worth paying $5 for.

So, I guess overall I can say my frame of mind is pretty happy and good. I am going to say it’s thanks to my evening walks. Being active really does do better things for me all around then going home and plopping onto the couch until time for bed. It’s on the internet now, so it must be true.


I finally got my Fitbit to sync on Friday morning. It synced all of Thursday and that was it. So I had to manually enter my steps as exercise for the rest of Tuesday and all of Wednesday. So, taking those photos didn’t seem so insane after all!

And doing my walks in the evening pushed me to my very first, I do believe, all 10k+ each day week! Go me!!fitbit weekly stats

But what I learned today is that my manually entered steps didn’t count in the rankings and instead of being in 2nd place on my friends list, by less than 2k!, I’m in 4th place. What?!?! This is some Fitbit Bullshit right here!

fitbit bullshit

So, I guess once Tuesday and Wednesday stats fall off I’ll be in my correct ranking position and I can quit being an obsessive maniac over the whole thing.

But, again…if it’s getting me to actually move more and care about losing the weight then it’s a good mania. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.


Since my FitBit isn’t syncing at the moment I have started taking photos of the stats on it at the end of each day. This is what I’ve become.


And because I have also become either competitive or petty as fuck, I’ve done math, too. Math! I take my stats and add them to the last sync standings so I can see where I am on the friends list. I don’t know whether to commend my commitment or be ashamed of my pettiness.

I’m going to choose to commend my commitment. Whatever keeps me motivated to lose the weight is a good thing, right? So, yeah. Positive spin!

So there we have it. Another day of 10k+ steps. I had to do laps in my house to get there but I did it! I’m seeing that you can fit things in if you’re creative and committed.

Tonight is another busy evening but I’m going to try to squeeze a 2 mile walk in. I even have it plotted out, even though I won’t be in my own neighborhood. But thanks to that one run I went on with my boyfriend, I know the distance from his apartment to the next major intersection is just over a mile. So, there and back will be just over 2 miles. I can do it if I time everything just so.

Dinner last night put some weight back on but that is one night and one night doesn’t ruin lives. Well…it can. But not where weight is concerned.

Go forth! Be committed! Even if it’s petty as fuck, I guess.

Strife and Peeves

My FitBit is currently not syncing. It stopped around 1pm yesterday. I had another 10k+ day and it doesn’t indicate it and it’s not picking up today’s steps and I’m way more irritated by this than I should be. But I have Randi to catch up to. And then pass.

That’s all of my strife. My life is really quite easy. Not bragging, just acknowledging how lucky I am.

Now, my peeve. When people are trying to lose weight and they are exercising but not seeing any weight loss OR they see weight gain and other people tell them “muscle weighs more than fat.” Or “Well, you’re adding muscle.” No to both. 5 pounds is 5 pounds. It weighs the same. It looks different and you will see inches come off so always measure yourself! But unless you are actively bulking you’re not adding muscle. You’re converting fat to muscle. You can and will lose weight but if you simply convert 5 pounds of fat to muscle all you’ve done is slimmed down a bit while maintaining the same number on the scale.

Not sure why that bugs me so much, but it does.

I have weighed myself each morning, like I always do and know that I shouldn’t. But I do it anyway. And I am steadily seeing weight come off now. Apparently actually adding in more walking, brisk walking, to my routine was really the kick in the pants I needed! Yay!

As of this morning, according to the office scale, I’m now down 3.4 pounds since we started the contest in January. FINALLY!! Most of that is within the last week. I hope to maintain this level of downsizing.

What are some of your peeves, person that may be reading this?